This has absolutely nothing to do with Warcraft.  Pass by if you like.  It’s not fun either.  I’m mostly posting this for myself.

I’ve debated for a bit how to make this post…or whether to.  I’ve been distracted by Cataclysm, and gearing for raids.  I’ve even been too distracted to post my (very much appreciated) Guest Posts and other posts I spent hours writing.  There were also the the holidays, which I have, unfortunately, generally find depressing the last few years.  And also, inconveniently or not, I needed to get my computer repaired again, causing me to be completely off the radar for a bit.  But it’s really been something else.

My favoritest cat passed away recently and this hit me a lot harder than I expected.

Again, feel free to bypass this post if it doesn’t call out to you.

He was a really delightful guy.  He slept with me – right by my pillow – every night for years.  He curled up right next to me when I got on my computer every day, resting his head on my wrist as I played.  Most people I raid with don’t know how often he was there too, nuzzling me when we all wiped.  He spent time with me every single morning when I woke up; every day I came home late from work.  Friends got used to hearing him bleat like a little lamb in the background in vent during quiet times, when he’d come up to me with his favorite toy – a stuffed cherry – and beg me (quite audibly) to throw it for him and play fetch.

He was the bestest cat ever, and I can’t begin to say how brave he was in facing a chronic illness for more than a year.  How he woke up every day ready to play and have fun and love me, regardless of being weak or sick.  He’s made every single day better since I took him home five years ago.

But one day, he couldn’t.

His sister and I are trying to figure things out.

She’s lonely and doesn’t get what happened to her lifetime companion…and I know better and I’m still wondering what happened to the sweet guy who got me through the last few years of trials in my life.  I think we may be adopting soon (since someone won’t let me sleep for trying to play for hours at a time.)  Meanwhile, I’m trying to help her…and find a little peace myself.

I seem fine until I try to talk about it.

So I don’t.

If you have a beloved cat (or even a dog *gasp* or turtle or parrot or petofanysort), please toss him or her a toy or a special treat today.  Just for Merc.

~ by ecclesiasticaldiscipline on January 9, 2011.

8 Responses to “Mercury”

  1. I’ll do that :( So sorry for both of you <3

  2. I am sorry for your loss. <:(

  3. I’m really sorry – I think one of the hardest things about losing an animal companion is that you feel a bit sheepish for being as upset as you are. But, y’know, it still counts.

  4. My cat Kitten had been a mad, bullied little thing but over the years I bonded with her. She lived in my bedroom 99% of the time and owould only socialise with me out of a 3 person and 8 cat household. She slept on my shoulder every night. I lost her a couple of years ago.

    I know at least a bit what you’re going through. I’m really sorry for both of you. My cat Socks will be spoilt rotten today in Merc’s memory.

  5. Now I’m sitting at my desk at work crying – I hope no one comes by. I’m so sorry about your cat :(

  6. Thank you to everyone for your kind thoughts! It means a lot to me.

    @Tam I’m not sure there’s a single person in my acquaintance who isn’t aware of how big of a deal my cats have been to me. Heck, my boss told me to just let her know when I was ready to come back to work. (Now that I think of it, that is a bit unusual.)

    @Rebecca *nuzzles for Socks*

    @Jasyla I went back and posted a photo of him just for you. I think you asked a long time ago…and I never got around to it.

  7. :(

    I patted my greyhound on the belly for you – she likes to sleep on her back with her legs straight up in the air, head hanging off the edge of the bed on the ground. She looks utterly ridiculous, but stupidly endearing.

  8. He’s beautiful.

    Again, so sorry. I’ve lost two cats in the past and it was terribly hard. I have been spoiling my cats in honor of Mercury.

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